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13thpromise) wrote2018-11-26 03:20 pm
13thpromise) wrote2018-11-26 03:20 pm
Vanitas!
[ The blond will try to get the other's attention by shouting after that clusterfuck once he spots him not nearby anyone else and crossing the halls (as it's difficult to do without going somewhere in this place.) ]
Can we talk for a moment? Alone?
[ The blond will try to get the other's attention by shouting after that clusterfuck once he spots him not nearby anyone else and crossing the halls (as it's difficult to do without going somewhere in this place.) ]
Can we talk for a moment? Alone?
Edited 2018-11-26 21:09 (UTC)
omfg I never hit send... It just sat there..........
enter_the_darkness
2018-11-27 10:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[ There's some hesitation, but he finally releases a sigh. After the day he's had, he's kind of... not feeling up for chatting with anyone else, but-- ]
Yeah, sure. [ a beat, and then a faint smirk (kind of forced, really) ] Where did you have in mind?
Yeah, sure. [ a beat, and then a faint smirk (kind of forced, really) ] Where did you have in mind?
LKFMLGH:RKM...it's okay, I've done that so many times too
13thpromise
2018-11-27 11:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Roxas waited with baited breath, before the other sighs and grants his request - he kind of wishes that the situation didn't literally go turbo before he did hunt Vanitas down. But it looks like they don't get to live the easy life. ]
How about my room? There's really not many good places for people not to eavesdrop on.
How about my room? There's really not many good places for people not to eavesdrop on.
[ He glances off to the side, in the direction of the room.
It's after a short moment, he shrugs a shoulder, nods, and then gestures in a typical "lead the way" manner. ]
It's after a short moment, he shrugs a shoulder, nods, and then gestures in a typical "lead the way" manner. ]
Edited 2018-11-28 05:25 (UTC)
[ Roxas nods and hurries off towards his room, which is 110. It probably doesn't take them that long to get there, and he opens the door for the both of them. ]
You can sit anywhere you want, I don't really care.
[ He'll wait for Vanitas to go right in before he closes the door, and sit somewhere before he speaks up. ]
There's still some things I wanted to talk about, even with what...happened. You can probably take a guess about what it is. If you don't, remember when you mentioned fighting that Ventus and something about him not following the right path?
You can sit anywhere you want, I don't really care.
[ He'll wait for Vanitas to go right in before he closes the door, and sit somewhere before he speaks up. ]
There's still some things I wanted to talk about, even with what...happened. You can probably take a guess about what it is. If you don't, remember when you mentioned fighting that Ventus and something about him not following the right path?
[ He lifts his eyebrows at the start, choosing to lean against the wall, arms folded. ]
I remember.
[ For a moment, he manages to keep a distance in his expression... and then he shrugs a shoulder. ]
Fine. Not like I trust the staff to keep it a secret for much longer, anyway. It wouldn't be as much fun watching you learn it from anyone else.
[ After unfolding his arms, he gestures kind of vaguely with both hands. ]
Ventus and I were two halves of a whole. [ a forced smirk ] I'm all of his darkness, forced out of his body with a Keyblade. We were supposed to reunite, but he refused.
I remember.
[ For a moment, he manages to keep a distance in his expression... and then he shrugs a shoulder. ]
Fine. Not like I trust the staff to keep it a secret for much longer, anyway. It wouldn't be as much fun watching you learn it from anyone else.
[ After unfolding his arms, he gestures kind of vaguely with both hands. ]
Ventus and I were two halves of a whole. [ a forced smirk ] I'm all of his darkness, forced out of his body with a Keyblade. We were supposed to reunite, but he refused.
[ The staff couldn't even keep the fact that he's a Nobody, a secret. Not that...anyone here knew what that was. Either way, Roxas didn't doubt it. ]
You're his darkness?
[ That's not entirely what he expected, despite the yellow eyes and all. ]
If you two reunited...that would be it, right? Only one of you would really have a body at that point - or Ventus would. Just like...
[ He trails off a little. It really sounds just like the situation with him and Sora, except he wasn't ever his Other's darkness. ]
You're his darkness?
[ That's not entirely what he expected, despite the yellow eyes and all. ]
If you two reunited...that would be it, right? Only one of you would really have a body at that point - or Ventus would. Just like...
[ He trails off a little. It really sounds just like the situation with him and Sora, except he wasn't ever his Other's darkness. ]
Exactly. I'm all the bad that ever lurked within him. Nothing more, nothing less.
[ He nods. ]
In the end, that detail wasn't the important part.
[ Now he's going silent... His arms are back to being folded over his chest, his gaze sharpening at the floor. ]
[ He nods. ]
In the end, that detail wasn't the important part.
[ Now he's going silent... His arms are back to being folded over his chest, his gaze sharpening at the floor. ]
Edited 2018-12-01 08:05 (UTC)
It wasn't?
[ That sounded pretty important to him. For a moment, he's quiet on his own end. ]
If Ventus doesn't want you two to be reunited, then there's really nothing stopping you from being your own person. I don't think that's really a bad thing.
[ That sounded pretty important to him. For a moment, he's quiet on his own end. ]
If Ventus doesn't want you two to be reunited, then there's really nothing stopping you from being your own person. I don't think that's really a bad thing.
[ Vanitas' quiescence was noted by the blond, and it bothered him to the point that it was all on his mind, enough to the point that at some point in the evening, he found himself heading towards his room.
His hands rapped on the other's door. ]
Vanitas? Can we talk?
[ He doesn't know if he was there but he had to try...but then again, where else would anybody be at a time like this? If there's no response he keeps knocking harder, getting a little worried. ]
His hands rapped on the other's door. ]
Vanitas? Can we talk?
[ He doesn't know if he was there but he had to try...but then again, where else would anybody be at a time like this? If there's no response he keeps knocking harder, getting a little worried. ]
Edited 2018-12-02 01:23 (UTC)
[ Eventually, he does answer, and there's a look on his face that's different from his usual air of Doesn't Care he manages to keep carefully in place.
Put simply? He looks... ready to punch Roxas (or more), already... ]
What.
Put simply? He looks... ready to punch Roxas (or more), already... ]
What.
[ But the most important question is:
Is his hair still in pigtails. ]
You suddenly left without saying anything...and with everything that happened, I'd thought you'd at least have something to say.
[ Gonna be blunt about that. ]
Is his hair still in pigtails. ]
You suddenly left without saying anything...and with everything that happened, I'd thought you'd at least have something to say.
[ Gonna be blunt about that. ]
[ SADLY NOT... though, the hair ties are over on the bedside table. Why the fuck is he keeping those.
His jawline tenses... several times. And the smirk he summons up is fragile, at best. It'd be difficult to read this as anything other than him keeping his shit together with the last of his willpower. ]
And?
His jawline tenses... several times. And the smirk he summons up is fragile, at best. It'd be difficult to read this as anything other than him keeping his shit together with the last of his willpower. ]
And?
Something's bothering you, isn't it?
[ Is it what happened to Medic, he wonders? Roxas didn't think the two were close, but he doesn't know for sure. He isn't blind to the way his facial expression had been tensing for a moment, either way. ]
...Facing stuff alone can be hard.
[ He's offering a hand with his words, even if they're clumsy. Though with Vanitas' nature, he isn't sure what to expect. But, he's here now. ]
[ Is it what happened to Medic, he wonders? Roxas didn't think the two were close, but he doesn't know for sure. He isn't blind to the way his facial expression had been tensing for a moment, either way. ]
...Facing stuff alone can be hard.
[ He's offering a hand with his words, even if they're clumsy. Though with Vanitas' nature, he isn't sure what to expect. But, he's here now. ]
[ His jawline tightens. ]
You talk a lot like him.
[ AKA in a manner that has him... uncomfortable, in ways that he can't put a finger on. His voice shifts a little, something practiced entering his tone. It's like he's said... something at least along these lines, more times than even he could remember. ]
To attain salvation, we must become one.
You talk a lot like him.
[ AKA in a manner that has him... uncomfortable, in ways that he can't put a finger on. His voice shifts a little, something practiced entering his tone. It's like he's said... something at least along these lines, more times than even he could remember. ]
To attain salvation, we must become one.
Like Ventus, you mean?
[ Roxas will finally move to sit on his bed, getting comfortable on the dark sheets and time to be real with him...telling him something he's not going to probably tell anyone else. ]
I'm only telling you this because I was pushed into merging with my Other too, and eventually, I accepted that was how it was. Everyone needed "Sora" [ ... that isn't said so friendly-like ] and in the end, that's what they got. It was like that for about maybe a year until...now.
[ For awhile, he was even okay with that, losing his sense of identity and he has no hard feelings against Sora now. But now that he's had his chance to be his own person again? He...realized how much he missed that. ]
So that's why while I don't know who fed you that "salvation" line, or how true it really is, I don't know if I'd agree with that. It's not like you really need him now, right?
[ Roxas will finally move to sit on his bed, getting comfortable on the dark sheets and time to be real with him...telling him something he's not going to probably tell anyone else. ]
I'm only telling you this because I was pushed into merging with my Other too, and eventually, I accepted that was how it was. Everyone needed "Sora" [ ... that isn't said so friendly-like ] and in the end, that's what they got. It was like that for about maybe a year until...now.
[ For awhile, he was even okay with that, losing his sense of identity and he has no hard feelings against Sora now. But now that he's had his chance to be his own person again? He...realized how much he missed that. ]
So that's why while I don't know who fed you that "salvation" line, or how true it really is, I don't know if I'd agree with that. It's not like you really need him now, right?
[ Those last few words are very much akin to some final straw. His expression shifts to something unreadable; he's fighting to regain control over something he doesn't actually stand a chance in getting full control over, again. Not like this.
Not in his mental state.
The mental state that has him reaching to grab the front of Roxas' shirt, snatch him closer... only to slam him against the wall - if he can.
In spite of what he aims to do, his voice is... eerily steady. As though he's genuinely curious when he asks: ]
What do you know about being alone?
Not in his mental state.
The mental state that has him reaching to grab the front of Roxas' shirt, snatch him closer... only to slam him against the wall - if he can.
In spite of what he aims to do, his voice is... eerily steady. As though he's genuinely curious when he asks: ]
What do you know about being alone?
[ Roxas feels like he should've expected that, and maybe that's why he's ready when the other decides to move against him. But, given how quick it happens, he can choose not to move out of the way, and it'll likely not be noticeable. So he doesn't, feeling himself being slammed uncomfortably up against the wall.
But his other hand reaches out fast to try to grab a hold of that wrist from the hand that's grabbing tightly onto his shirt. ]
I know enough.
[ It's easy to say, after having something, then losing it all, and then...there being no one really there for you anymore. Simple as that, even though he doesn't think that Vanitas' circumstances were the same. ]
I don't really need to be in your shoes to know what it's like. When you thought you had it all...and then one day that changes, leaving you with no one - with nothing.
[ The "you" for a moment here is Roxas speaking of himself, rather than anyone else or Vanitas. ]
And in a place like this? It's easy to find yourself alone. But it doesn't mean it has to stay that way.
But his other hand reaches out fast to try to grab a hold of that wrist from the hand that's grabbing tightly onto his shirt. ]
I know enough.
[ It's easy to say, after having something, then losing it all, and then...there being no one really there for you anymore. Simple as that, even though he doesn't think that Vanitas' circumstances were the same. ]
I don't really need to be in your shoes to know what it's like. When you thought you had it all...and then one day that changes, leaving you with no one - with nothing.
[ The "you" for a moment here is Roxas speaking of himself, rather than anyone else or Vanitas. ]
And in a place like this? It's easy to find yourself alone. But it doesn't mean it has to stay that way.
Edited 2018-12-02 07:38 (UTC)
[ Well, that sure is a bombshell.
It's a lot to take in, a lot to process at all, but... he tries to focus. He tries to do so calmly, and yet his mind is trying to focus on some key points, rather than on the bigger part of it all.
Roxas is only half a person, too (which has him wondering if that's where "Nobody" comes from, not that he can begin to be sure/know why).
Roxas is still trying to talk like he could begin to fully understand what Vanitas feels. ]
What exactly made Sora your "Other", Roxas?
It's a lot to take in, a lot to process at all, but... he tries to focus. He tries to do so calmly, and yet his mind is trying to focus on some key points, rather than on the bigger part of it all.
Roxas is only half a person, too (which has him wondering if that's where "Nobody" comes from, not that he can begin to be sure/know why).
Roxas is still trying to talk like he could begin to fully understand what Vanitas feels. ]
What exactly made Sora your "Other", Roxas?
[ Roxas' hold on his wrist only has him trying to tighten his grip more as he leans in, teeth clenched, eyes narrowed... before he tries to pull it all back in.
But, with him losing his cool, like this, he isn't thinking clearly enough to bother with keeping the Unversed where they should probably stay. Given... well. One appears behind him, but... 16-bit, 2D format is not very intimidating, is it? Vanitas either hasn't noticed or doesn't care, according to how he just goes on with saying: ]
Stop talking like you know!
[ And isn't looking back. Which could be strange, given how much that thing is moving around, back there. ]
But, with him losing his cool, like this, he isn't thinking clearly enough to bother with keeping the Unversed where they should probably stay. Given... well. One appears behind him, but... 16-bit, 2D format is not very intimidating, is it? Vanitas either hasn't noticed or doesn't care, according to how he just goes on with saying: ]
Stop talking like you know!
[ And isn't looking back. Which could be strange, given how much that thing is moving around, back there. ]
[ Honestly, he probably can't fully understand everything that Vanitas feels ... it's similar and maybe things added up in a similar way, but, their experiences were fundamentally different.
He may be hoping that they were similar enough to reach some sort of understanding, though. ]
Because I'm his Nobody.
[ Since that explains literally...everything. Okay, okay, no he really isn't going to leave it at that. He may as well try to explain his relation to Sora and what a Nobody is at the same time so he can just get it over with. ]
I'm from what's left when Sora lost his heart to the darkness. I'm something that should've never existed and technically don't when it comes down to it. But because I was so important to Sora, apparently without me, he couldn't ever wake up again. [ So, yeah. ] Part of me thinks they could've found another way if they wanted, but I guess I won't know for sure.
He may be hoping that they were similar enough to reach some sort of understanding, though. ]
Because I'm his Nobody.
[ Since that explains literally...everything. Okay, okay, no he really isn't going to leave it at that. He may as well try to explain his relation to Sora and what a Nobody is at the same time so he can just get it over with. ]
I'm from what's left when Sora lost his heart to the darkness. I'm something that should've never existed and technically don't when it comes down to it. But because I was so important to Sora, apparently without me, he couldn't ever wake up again. [ So, yeah. ] Part of me thinks they could've found another way if they wanted, but I guess I won't know for sure.
Edited 2018-12-02 09:01 (UTC)
[ Roxas just manages to look right back into Vanitas' face, but he feels his own body kind of automatically tense up when the grip tightens, and he starts to really get up in his face. Out of sheer stubborness he doesn't even turn his head away even so. ]
But it's true, right?
[ That thing sure caught his attention. It's...actually kind of cute? Wow. ]
...what's that thing behind you?
But it's true, right?
[ That thing sure caught his attention. It's...actually kind of cute? Wow. ]
...what's that thing behind you?
[ Definitely different from their situation, and yet...
He ignores how it feels to hear Roxas say he's something that shouldn't have existed. ]
You said you were forced to reunite...
[ He's tilting his head to the side a little. ]
How?
He ignores how it feels to hear Roxas say he's something that shouldn't have existed. ]
You said you were forced to reunite...
[ He's tilting his head to the side a little. ]
How?
[ He's so tightly wound up, he needs an outlet of some kind. That much is obvious by the way there's a faint tremble of his hands for just a split second. In how there's a clear instability in his gaze.
It... hurts. It hurts like back when he was first made, and all he could feel was that gnawing, burning pain in his chest. And all he could think about was how he shouldn't be. ]
... A part of me.
[ He glances back at it, already summoning his Keyblade as he turns towards it. With his back only half to Roxas, his head a bit lowered, he gives a wry smirk. His Keyblade is just... a little unsteady as he stares at the Unversed, just for now. ]
And, no. It's not true.
It... hurts. It hurts like back when he was first made, and all he could feel was that gnawing, burning pain in his chest. And all he could think about was how he shouldn't be. ]
... A part of me.
[ He glances back at it, already summoning his Keyblade as he turns towards it. With his back only half to Roxas, his head a bit lowered, he gives a wry smirk. His Keyblade is just... a little unsteady as he stares at the Unversed, just for now. ]
And, no. It's not true.
[ Roxas thought he was really over it, but, he just sort of presses his lips together, and looks at his hands in his lap. ]
Ansem had me trapped in this fake version of Twilight Town, had someone help create fake memories for me, and had basically found a way to lead me down to where Sora was sleeping, at the right time for them. The place was like some kind of lab-like area underneath the town. He was also kept in this weird...circular-shaped thing? It was weird.
I also couldn't really go anywhere else at that point, since I didn't really have a way to escape, so all that was left was to just go ahead and merge with him.
[ That is kind of the abridged version...but there was really a lot. ]
Ansem had me trapped in this fake version of Twilight Town, had someone help create fake memories for me, and had basically found a way to lead me down to where Sora was sleeping, at the right time for them. The place was like some kind of lab-like area underneath the town. He was also kept in this weird...circular-shaped thing? It was weird.
I also couldn't really go anywhere else at that point, since I didn't really have a way to escape, so all that was left was to just go ahead and merge with him.
[ That is kind of the abridged version...but there was really a lot. ]
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