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13thpromise) wrote2018-12-11 11:53 am
13thpromise) wrote2018-12-11 11:53 am
[ This week has barely started and already it's been a lot in terms of everything that's come their way. Yet at this point in time Roxas thinks they're still going to need more than that...however grateful he's been for the help.
And speaking of grateful, he finds himself in front of Snake's door at some nebulous time in the day, giving it a knock. ]
Snake? Are you around?
And speaking of grateful, he finds himself in front of Snake's door at some nebulous time in the day, giving it a knock. ]
Snake? Are you around?
Edited 2018-12-11 19:10 (UTC)
[From the grunt that follows, it's clear that the answer's yes.
After a moment, the door opens.]
What do you need, kid?
After a moment, the door opens.]
What do you need, kid?
...I just wanted to talk for a little bit.
[ His mind's on what was revealed yesterday, and he thinks maybe if some personal things come up...he might not want it to be heard by everyone. ]
[ His mind's on what was revealed yesterday, and he thinks maybe if some personal things come up...he might not want it to be heard by everyone. ]
[Snake is, honestly, surprised that anyone would come to him for this kind of thing.]
...You sure you don't want to talk to Ripley?
[...well, he can't pawn everyone seeking advice or company off onto her.
He opens the door, and gestures for Roxas to come in. There should be some space to sit, amongst all the boxes.]
What's on your mind?
...You sure you don't want to talk to Ripley?
[...well, he can't pawn everyone seeking advice or company off onto her.
He opens the door, and gestures for Roxas to come in. There should be some space to sit, amongst all the boxes.]
What's on your mind?
[ Roxas only looks confused at the question...yeah he doesn't seem to get it, so he'll just shake his head. ]
I don't really talk to her much.
[ Then he heads into the room and looks at the boxes, also blinking more than once, heading over to one of them to see if they'd be okay to set on. Before deciding to sit nearby one instead. ]
...I guess some of what we were speaking about yesterday. I noticed that a lot of people seemed to have experience dealing with bad organizations...or we had memories of that at least. [ Not just talking about the Foundation but their "lives" before then. ] You don't have to really say or go into detail, but I was wondering if it was the same with you?
I don't really talk to her much.
[ Then he heads into the room and looks at the boxes, also blinking more than once, heading over to one of them to see if they'd be okay to set on. Before deciding to sit nearby one instead. ]
...I guess some of what we were speaking about yesterday. I noticed that a lot of people seemed to have experience dealing with bad organizations...or we had memories of that at least. [ Not just talking about the Foundation but their "lives" before then. ] You don't have to really say or go into detail, but I was wondering if it was the same with you?
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[Snake...well, he should've been expecting a question like that. Still, he can't help but exhale a sigh as he sits himself down on the floor.]
Yeah. [Things were more complicated than 'good' and 'bad', but, so long as the shoe fit...] Can't seem to get away from them.
[He rubs the back of his neck, with a tired grunt. He thought he might've been out after what happened in Alaska, but then there was all this with The Foundation.
There's a pause, and he has an idea why he's asking.]
Guess it's the same for you too, huh?
Yeah. [Things were more complicated than 'good' and 'bad', but, so long as the shoe fit...] Can't seem to get away from them.
[He rubs the back of his neck, with a tired grunt. He thought he might've been out after what happened in Alaska, but then there was all this with The Foundation.
There's a pause, and he has an idea why he's asking.]
Guess it's the same for you too, huh?
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[ Roxas nodded. Because judging by their circumstance...these organizations seem to just literally be everywhere. It's a funny thing to think that you might be out of the woods for one reason (him being merged into Sora) but then somehow it turns out that life decides to happen to make the impossible possible. ]
Yeah. At one point I was stuck with a bad group before the whole Foundation thing happened. It was probably kind of easy to guess, wasn't it?
[ Though probably not for the reason Roxas thinks it is. ]
Yeah. At one point I was stuck with a bad group before the whole Foundation thing happened. It was probably kind of easy to guess, wasn't it?
[ Though probably not for the reason Roxas thinks it is. ]
[A nod.]
You said 'again'. Kind of gave yourself away there.
[He didn't have to be a master spy to work that one out.]
What kind of group was it?
You said 'again'. Kind of gave yourself away there.
[He didn't have to be a master spy to work that one out.]
What kind of group was it?
[ So he figured right, well, that was okay. ]
It was a shady group, like all the rest. They assigned everyone missions and all that, where we went out to different worlds depending on what we had to get done that day. But basically the ultimate goal was to get us to return back to normal lives and the leader of the Organization promised that if we followed along with what he said, he'd be able to do that.
But once you join, you can't leave and all of that or you'd be punished or worse.
[ ... ]
In the end, the leader - "The Superior" -- lied, of course. I'd already left awhile ago and I didn't quite figure out that he'd lied until recently.
It was a shady group, like all the rest. They assigned everyone missions and all that, where we went out to different worlds depending on what we had to get done that day. But basically the ultimate goal was to get us to return back to normal lives and the leader of the Organization promised that if we followed along with what he said, he'd be able to do that.
But once you join, you can't leave and all of that or you'd be punished or worse.
[ ... ]
In the end, the leader - "The Superior" -- lied, of course. I'd already left awhile ago and I didn't quite figure out that he'd lied until recently.
[As Roxas talks, Snake can't help but draw parallels with his own life. Right down to the twist - seemed this place wasn't done reminding him of that man.]
Let me guess, they took you in because you had nowhere else?
[It's more rhetorical than anything. You don't wind up in a place like that when you have options.]
What did he lie about?
Let me guess, they took you in because you had nowhere else?
[It's more rhetorical than anything. You don't wind up in a place like that when you have options.]
What did he lie about?
Yeah...back then, I had nowhere else to go and didn't know anyone or anybody who could take me in.
[ ... Definitely is an issue of being taken in when he had no one else to be there or wasn't able to really figure out anything. ]
He lied about wanting to help us. Xemnas, The Superior, wanted to use everyone in the Organization to become mindless vessels so they'd be all under the control of someone named Xehanort.
[ ... Definitely is an issue of being taken in when he had no one else to be there or wasn't able to really figure out anything. ]
He lied about wanting to help us. Xemnas, The Superior, wanted to use everyone in the Organization to become mindless vessels so they'd be all under the control of someone named Xehanort.
[Snake's look darkens. He's just heard of this guy Xemnas, and already, he hates him.]
Sounds like one hell of a bastard.
[A term he might use in endearment in other contexts, but not this one.]
Turning people into puppets...what was he planning on doing with you? Building an army?
Sounds like one hell of a bastard.
[A term he might use in endearment in other contexts, but not this one.]
Turning people into puppets...what was he planning on doing with you? Building an army?
You're not wrong.
[ Solidarity in hating someone like him for sure. ]
...Yeah, actually. He was looking to build up an army so that Xehanort would have his 13 Seekers of Darkness. It's all kind of really insane.
[ Roxas grimaces at that, though. Seeing it all through the eyes of Sora was an Experience. ]
[ Solidarity in hating someone like him for sure. ]
...Yeah, actually. He was looking to build up an army so that Xehanort would have his 13 Seekers of Darkness. It's all kind of really insane.
[ Roxas grimaces at that, though. Seeing it all through the eyes of Sora was an Experience. ]
[A resentful grunt, though not directed at Roxas.]
You can say that again.
[Insane, and completely predatory and cruel. Though; what could he say for the armies that recruited him when he was only a kid himself?]
How'd you get out?
[He assumes - or hopes - that he did.]
You can say that again.
[Insane, and completely predatory and cruel. Though; what could he say for the armies that recruited him when he was only a kid himself?]
How'd you get out?
[He assumes - or hopes - that he did.]
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[ Snake, you're so kind. ]
I ran away. My reasons for leaving back then were that I wanted to find some answers, and I didn't even know what Xemnas had intended for the Organization at that time. But, I didn't care, I'd just had enough of it.
[ His hands settled into his lap carefully now. ]
They gave chase, but that's probably not surprising. I guess the most important thing is...they weren't able to catch me as hard as they tried. And that's what matters, right?
I ran away. My reasons for leaving back then were that I wanted to find some answers, and I didn't even know what Xemnas had intended for the Organization at that time. But, I didn't care, I'd just had enough of it.
[ His hands settled into his lap carefully now. ]
They gave chase, but that's probably not surprising. I guess the most important thing is...they weren't able to catch me as hard as they tried. And that's what matters, right?
[Snake gives an, at first hesitant, then rushed nod.]
Yeah. [...] You shouldn't have to be on the run forever, you know. You're still young, you've got your whole life ahead of you.
[He leans his head back a little.]
Play video games, finish school, fall in love...
[Wow he sounds old, saying that.]
Ever get your answers in the end?
Yeah. [...] You shouldn't have to be on the run forever, you know. You're still young, you've got your whole life ahead of you.
[He leans his head back a little.]
Play video games, finish school, fall in love...
[Wow he sounds old, saying that.]
Ever get your answers in the end?
I've always wanted to live a life like that. When I was on missions and saw the other kids in Twilight Town, it made me realize how much I wanted to play, and have fun like they did. Like I was ... one of them.
[ Roxas doesn't know if he'd ever go to school but playing video games in a situation that's not life or death...and well, maybe he's already fallen in love... ]
I think I did. I was looking for answers on who I was, because back then there was a lot of things I wanted to find out about myself, and no one would even tell me. That...probably sounds a little strange.
[ Roxas doesn't know if he'd ever go to school but playing video games in a situation that's not life or death...and well, maybe he's already fallen in love... ]
I think I did. I was looking for answers on who I was, because back then there was a lot of things I wanted to find out about myself, and no one would even tell me. That...probably sounds a little strange.
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[After a quiet moment, Snake shakes his head slightly.]
Not to me.
[He feels he should elaborate, at least a little, to afford the statement more sincerity.]
Didn't know much about myself either. I didn't go looking for answers, though...they just found me.
[All too much and all too quickly. And, like Roxas, they'd been kept from him a long time too.]
How was it? What you found out. Were you happy with it?
Not to me.
[He feels he should elaborate, at least a little, to afford the statement more sincerity.]
Didn't know much about myself either. I didn't go looking for answers, though...they just found me.
[All too much and all too quickly. And, like Roxas, they'd been kept from him a long time too.]
How was it? What you found out. Were you happy with it?
[A little after, well...everything, Snake feels the need to check up on Roxas. If only to make sure no one's tried to get to him for that.
He gives a knock on his door.]
You in there?
He gives a knock on his door.]
You in there?
[ They wwre rewlly so similar... ]
They found you? Was that a good thing?
[ Can't stop him from being curious about that, really. ]
At first I wasn't really happy because the answers I got ended up being "I was just half of someone else" and really not considered anything that actually existed. I knew that's also what the Superior said but hearing it from other people hurt.
I only realized that when people kept saying I wasn't anything or someone else, that I had my answer all along:
I was who I was--a person with their own thoughts and their own heart. But by then...things had gotten dofficult and I was forced to be erased. So, I don't know if I was ever really happy figuring that out. If I'd just remained not knowing anything...maybe that'd been better. I might've been happier.
They found you? Was that a good thing?
[ Can't stop him from being curious about that, really. ]
At first I wasn't really happy because the answers I got ended up being "I was just half of someone else" and really not considered anything that actually existed. I knew that's also what the Superior said but hearing it from other people hurt.
I only realized that when people kept saying I wasn't anything or someone else, that I had my answer all along:
I was who I was--a person with their own thoughts and their own heart. But by then...things had gotten dofficult and I was forced to be erased. So, I don't know if I was ever really happy figuring that out. If I'd just remained not knowing anything...maybe that'd been better. I might've been happier.
[ Roxas opens the door, looking drained and his eyes are red around the edges, but his eyes aren't very watery...but yeah tonight's been difficult. Not a sad one by virtue of what he did...but it wasn't easy nonetheless. ]
Yeah...I am. Did you want to talk?
Yeah...I am. Did you want to talk?
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[There's a small relief at getting an answer, and seeing the state of him, he feels a little reassured in his decision to come here.]
Yeah. You got a moment?
Yeah. You got a moment?
[Snake listens, and at that - forced to be erased - he finds that anger again. Just as he'd found himself, just as he'd escaped...that wasn't fair, at all. As naive as it was to expect fairness from the world, even after all he's seen, he can't help but object to the injustice of it.]
I don't know.
[He sighs, and looks toward the ceiling.]
I might've been happier. Not knowing what I found out about myself...it could've saved me a lot of trouble.
[A lot of nightmares, too.]
But...I know who I am better now. I know it doesn't matter where I came from. Just what I decide to do with the life I have.
[Which, still, is something he has to work out. Something he can work on when he's not just trying to stay alive, maybe.]
I don't know.
[He sighs, and looks toward the ceiling.]
I might've been happier. Not knowing what I found out about myself...it could've saved me a lot of trouble.
[A lot of nightmares, too.]
But...I know who I am better now. I know it doesn't matter where I came from. Just what I decide to do with the life I have.
[Which, still, is something he has to work out. Something he can work on when he's not just trying to stay alive, maybe.]
...Yeah, I do.
[ Roxas moves to the side to let him come in if he wanted, and if Snake doesn't close the door, he will. He didn't know what Snake wanted to start off with though, so he'll wait patiently for that as he heads back to sit back on his bed. ]
[ Roxas moves to the side to let him come in if he wanted, and if Snake doesn't close the door, he will. He didn't know what Snake wanted to start off with though, so he'll wait patiently for that as he heads back to sit back on his bed. ]
[ ...and it'd been after Roxas realized he'd been kidnapped by someone else too. But it became somehow "You can't fight fate" and that's basically been how it was his entire life - he couldn't fight against the hand that had been dealt to him.
It really hurt. ]
...Because you're still your own person, and you have a right to make your own choices to live the life you want to.
[ ...their conversation earlier is sure coming back to him now, yep. ]
What made you keep going, to have the strength to even decide that when all of those answers came at you and brought so much trouble? Was it a certain someone or...something else that happened?
It really hurt. ]
...Because you're still your own person, and you have a right to make your own choices to live the life you want to.
[ ...their conversation earlier is sure coming back to him now, yep. ]
What made you keep going, to have the strength to even decide that when all of those answers came at you and brought so much trouble? Was it a certain someone or...something else that happened?
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